DROWNING IN THAT CUP OF SORROWS...

Amidst this infinite darkness of cold loneliness,
High on the fiery flames of frustration,
Drenched in the downpour of hatred,
Beguiled by the tricks of one's emotions,
Soiled with longings,
Breathing pain...agony,
Trying to stay afloat in this sea of sorrows,
Trying hard to reach out to that sky of hope,
But drowning further down...
Deeper and deeper and deeper down...

To That Missing Pinch of Happiness.

you can so not count on people these days....its a cruel , selfish world..everyone's actions have motives behind it, and all these motives happen to be so fuckin selfish..from parents to siblings to your dates....all!
and people are so skilled- they can portray themselves any which way they want to and leave an individual so confused as to what next..? what will be the next face i encounter, is this the same person i knew not so long back..?

how life and people can change in a jiffy!how all that's planned can come crashing down..
and your inheritance is pain...
it becomes a part of daily living for some... an ingredient (as indispensable as salt) in the pudding of life

whatever happened to that pinch of happiness that we all crave for?

MY CREED (Modified)

God made me, i was no accident, i was in god's plan.
And he doesn’t make junk....EVER.
I was born to be, a successful human being..
That’s what i thought...But now its an altogether different story...Here’s how it goes now a days:

I had talents potential, yes..
Was surely one of a kind...
Then came along 12th...
Ruination was knocking my door, without my realization of the same..
And now that I've realized...It’s to no avail...
'Coz my universe came crashing down after the history board...
Terms like "hell" and "damnation" define what i earlier called...Well...
"My Life...”

Demons in Disguise

Life makes such tempting offers…beckons with such charm. The temptations arrive in packages, in the form of material pleasures, those sweetly sinful indulgences and the most dangerous of all incarnations- HUMANS.
Materialistic pleasures, so selfish they make us…creates such cravings… forces us to plagiarize and become who we aren’t. All this so we’re not ostracized from that surrounding that we long to be a part of. And we go to such extravagant extents to make sure we “fit in.”

Sinister indulgences, those tempting…tantalizingly tempting things in life that we get ourselves into. Its wrong, shouldn’t be done, we should run the other way on the mere thought of it…but, again a tempting offer that life gives, and the fallen angels that we are, we “indulge” in those contravening pleasures of life…

But… when it comes to humans, believe me, I have but just an iota of trust left within for this specimen. There seem to be just a handful, a miniscule number of them that I trust. Its ravaging to watch those whom you want to trust, play with words and skills to make you feel like a puppet in their hands… and please, the fact that I haven’t called out on your lies doesn’t mean I haven’t noticed. Hello? Not all of us are dumb wits! So, back to the point, humans-innocent and beautiful looking creations of the almighty, but seething with deceit and warmongerings (if that’s even a word) are to date in my experience up to now, most dangerous. They all act in collusion.

Here’s a modified saying to end the note with:
All the world’s a shit hole.
And all the men and women merely diggers!



acknowledgments: a note of thanks to:
abin- for helping with the title
to all those alive 'coz it illegal to kill you, thanks coz you prompted my imagination to come up with this note.. :X