Forgiveness seems to be a very elusive concept. One might be able to forgive. Even forget. But coming to terms with the oppressor seems to be a big time trouble.
It is not ego, or so I thought. And in the process of trying to put my finger on the this binding emotion, I realize that it is the fear of rejection. This timidity that comes from within is in a way egoistic. I might greet the person, believe me I want to, but I don't have the guts to face the embarrassment if they ignore me.
And therefore I sit back. Enjoying my comfort zone like the coward that I am.
And I say to myself everyday "Let's try forgiveness." A little tough. But simply worth the while.
And I will try smiling at my adversary tomorrow. Again.
:)
It is not ego, or so I thought. And in the process of trying to put my finger on the this binding emotion, I realize that it is the fear of rejection. This timidity that comes from within is in a way egoistic. I might greet the person, believe me I want to, but I don't have the guts to face the embarrassment if they ignore me.
And therefore I sit back. Enjoying my comfort zone like the coward that I am.
And I say to myself everyday "Let's try forgiveness." A little tough. But simply worth the while.
And I will try smiling at my adversary tomorrow. Again.
:)
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